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| Having just returned from FTX, the poor man was practically asleep, exhausted to the bone. |
At 6 a.m. this morning I sat and watched a very familiar sunrise, over a very familiar building. I got a very familiar text, telling me I could come down and retrieve a very sleepy man. Today was the very last Sunday I will ever be waking up at 5:30 to go pick Jakob up from the barracks to come home with me. Every Sunday from here on out (well, give or take a few), I will finally be able to wake up and start my day with my husband right there, by my side.
As this chapter of our lives comes to a close, there is very little bitterness, but mostly sweetness. Sweetness in the joy of moving so much closer to our families, sweetness in the thought of finally being able to live together, and sweetness in the prospect of being able to settle down (a little bit, at least). Although there is bitterness too. Bitterness in saying farewell, and thank you for everything (more than I could put into words), to the Gehrke's, and bitterness in leaving our beautiful Arizona sunshine! No one could ever be fully prepared to say goodbye to a good tan! Although in this line of work, goodbyes seem to have to become second nature. In the end, we truly cannot wait to journey forward into this new chapter of our life, together.
It will never be a goodbye for us, there will always be one very giant link that brings our two families together. I have tried to start a goodbye post about three times now and each time the words never come out right and they fall into a jumble on the screen. Maybe one day I will be able to attempt one. I am so happy that we were able to go on this journey together. Although it started out full of tears, and will probably end the same way it has been one heck of a whirl wind friendship. I feel like I have known you my entire life, and you are truly the only person(well other than Kyle) that will ever understand the full extent of how hard the last 7 months have been. Thank you for being such a great friend, although thank you does not even come close to my gratitude. I could not have asked for a better person to travel this road with.
ReplyDeleteTonight, like so many other nights, we sat beside each other in our cars and watched our men walk away. I didn't have to look to know you were there, because you're always right there next to me. As we turned and waved silently goodbye through our car windows, it felt like a summation of this entire journey. I don't know what it will take for me to fully realize that besides Jakob, the rest of this journey is on my own. There can never be a single other person that knows every twist and turn, up and down, and bump and bruise of this road like you do. You are irreplaceable, and I don't know what I'll do without you. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank god for texting!
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